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| ok so i'm sitting here watching a live keith urban concert on CMT. Let me be the FIRST to say that he is the most beautiful man i've ever seen. GOSH the things that i'd to for him to be mine. MMM good. he's like campbell's soup.yea whatever, anyways. I think it's that he has gorgeous hair and a voice like an angel.
ok so jim just called, we haven't talked in a REALLY long time. I sometimes feel like i'm just someone that he calls when he doesn't have any other girl to talk to. So that kinda makes me feel used, but I really like him. It's so frustrating for me in this situtation because I don't want to like him but I can't help it, it's like I get over him and move on and then something happens and I start to like him again. I don't think that I really want to move on I think that I keep thinking that we might get back together and everything be perfect like it used to be. But i don't know what i really think.
Ok so there is this other guys that i sorta kinda like. NO NAMES RIGHT NOW>>>SORRY! lol. I have never talked to him cause he seems really shy. but one of my friends says that he is really immature. and part of me is like ok i'm jsut gonna forget about him, but the other part of me is like that's kinda what i want right now. I want a shy immature guy that doesn't really know how to be a boyfriend so I can "teach" him how I want him to be. but he's so so so cute. and he blushes  when he gets embarrassed and i'm a sucker for that. o yeah he's got these perfectly placed dimples in his cheeks that make smile in this girlish way that five year olds do. WOW i'm sounding really silly now...
But anyways, I just don't know what to do about all this. Maybe I will have a chance one day to talk to him. maybe one of his friends will have a party and i'm also friends with that friend and we will get to talk and get to know each other. Who knows, life is full of Maybes.maybe, maybe, maybe!!
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| Hey yall!! today was alot better. Yea, yesterday was pretty rough.
anyways. track has already started for me. I'm working out everyday and running and all that good stuff. we are going to have a pole vault pit before november. you have no idea how excited that makes me. I'm going to be out there everyday practicing. Anyone want to have a laugh at watching the future state champion fall on her butt a couple of times? well come on out to the track and watch me pole vault.... the first couple of times are always rough.
anyways, i talked to amanda today. I just love talking to her cause she's so cool and real. we are alot alike but really different too, and that's why we get along so well. She's a cool girl.
well that's about all i've got to say for now, post ya later! lol
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| ok so why is it that everytime something goes wrong in my life and get on this stupid computer, go to my xanga page, and then pour my fricken guts to a bunch of people that i either don't know or wouldn't tell them about me shit if i did know them... anyways. I sure alot of what i'm going to say tonight some of you already know or either i'm going to mention/talk about some people that you are friends with or are related to them...get over it cause i really need to vent. and since i don't really have anyone to talk to this is all i have,.
OK so not last weekend but the weekend before me and some friends went camping. while we were there we decided that we wanted to go and get somethine to drink. so we did. we went to jilli's lake house and got some. ok so when we get back lindsey, meg, and sara...the ones that didn't come with us (me, jilli, stranger, and joseph) had left and went to the boathouse....they were mad that we left to go drink. that night was cool we all had fun and no harm was done...no one got really drunk it was all good. so the next day the others were mad at us still. and then on monday EVERYBODY knew what had happened. which really didn't matter until them wouldn't grow and stop talking about it. OK so finally i just had to stop sitting with them at lunch cause it was getting on my nerves.
last weekend... jilli and I spent the night at her lake house. joseph came, and we drank a little. mainly they drank and i babysat. jilli's parents called and said that they would be there in an hour so we had to clean up real quick and take joseph to dexter. we made it back home just in time to get into bed before jilli's folks got there. so like on sunday night mom starts to quiz me about what happened over the weekends. because someone had told her something.
it turned out that adam and said something to michael (let me just say that i'm not mad at anyone for saying anything...thanks for looking out for guy, but i'm not stupid and i'm not going to drive drunk or anything like that.). Michael was worried that i was going to be drinking and driving and he didn't want anything to happen to me so he told him mom who is best friends with my mom so of course she's going to tell mom what all happened. So at first i denied it. well mom, aka sherlock holmes, investigates the situtation further and finds out everything. So i just admit to it and whatever. so now she's debating whether to tell dad. and I really don't want him to find out because i don't want to be punished for doing something that he has an additction to. that would just make me want to rebel and go do it again except in an angry was. and me doing anything in an angry manner is just NOT GOOD.
But anyways. me and jilli have been talking and it's just really not worth all the sneaking around to have a few drinks. so we are just like whatever it was fun for a little while and now let's move on to something else. I really need to get back to God. Ive fallen so far. it seems like everytime that i start to get somewhat close to him something happens that makes me fall, i know those things should pull me closer to him but they don't they just make me mad at him because i feel so let down sometimes.I don't really know where i'm going with all of this. right now i'm just really lost with a bunch of mixed up emotions.
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| hi, hey, hello! ok yeah whatever.... well on sunday i returned home from a four day pole vault camp in jonesboro, arkansas. Best four days of my life!! i met some of the best people there.-Daisy- she was injured like the second day while vaulting really well and she's such a trooper cause either she would crack on herself or we would...I still say that "Rose" beat her up....anyways, Daisy is just a really cool girl,-Clair- when I first walked into the camp and saw her I thought that I had seen her before, and later that day we were introducing ourselves and she asked me if I went to this meet in moblie and that is where I had meet her before. Ok well Clair and I couldn't stop laughing at the stupidest things...there wasn't ever a time that we weren't laughing...like we laughed like 500 time! LOL.-Tori- I didn't get to know tori too well until the second night. She's a real cool girl. Besides entertaining each other while bartending we didn't really know each other beyond that. -Cathrine- she's lives right outside that wonderful city of NEW YORK. not fair right. This girl is awesome, she's so nice and so unlike the typical person that you would think lives in the northeast corner of the states. this girl has high expectations...and i admire her for that...she plans to go to Duke to college. -Matt- damn you matt!!! you beat me...j/k I let you win... ... matt was the only guy in the three groups on our pit...poor man. He PR'd like everyday. and this kid LOVES to read he plowed through like 24 WHOLE pages whlie we were there. -Katie- just clap your hands like this....I'm gonna clap you...(me and clair still laugh about that one)...yeah like 500 times, i'll never forget all the random and hillarious things that you say. -Vanessa- This girl is HARDCORE. She paid for the camp with her own birthday money! that's awesome! when it was her turn to vault is was all business, this girl could fly. You and your random words. 1) bread 2) then mayo 3) then turkey, yes you can have two slices of turkey if you want.
OK well as you can see I really liked my trip to arkansas...great fun....I plan to go back during Christmas break...I CAN'T WAIT!
ok my boyfriend situtation. I have finally gotten rid of Jerame. What a relief. He has finally quit calling me and bothering me. So just to let all you hot guys that I'm currently available.....
Christ in YOU!>>>>>>>>>Raechel
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| hey dan!!!
well the jerm and i are sitting here, well actually jerame is sitting in the chair behind me taking a little cat nap....he's so cute when he sleeps. we rode the wave runner to day...FREEZZING!!!!! but it was still alot of fun fun fun. then he though that his game was canceled but then it turned out that it wasn't and then it was...BIG confusion. So since i was ready to go to his game we just decided that we'd go out to eat so we went to o'charley's yummy yummy. then we rented a move...electra... and watched it. now we are here! just chilling in the computer room...pretty interesting huh?!?
ok well i'm outtie~ Christ in YOU! | | |
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